Make War

Tonight I'm refocusing my definition of what my role is here in Kensington and as a woman of God.  I don't think you can live here and deny that we are in a spiritual battle.  I look at my life and I see sin and the enemy seeking to devour me from the inside out.  He is looking at our marriage and looking for ways to divide.  I look at our streets and I see addiction and violence calling after people.  There are a lot of physical and tangible battles going on in our world but we can see deeper:

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the ruler, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (Eph 6:12)

The more I observe this culture, the more I read/learn about what lies the enemy is spreading here the more my eyes are opened to what we are facing.  And I'm sure I am only seeing the tip of the iceberg.  A while back I felt God leading me to declare war on sin.  It was not ok anymore to sit back and let sin pull me this way and that, it wasn't ok to allow small arguments to leave me angry and unresolved, it wasn't ok anymore to watch sin around me and feel helpless.  And so war was declared.  Prayer became central.  This is not a physically violent war, this is a war of heart and soul.  The Word of God also became central because I realized that I didn't know enough.  I haven't gone deep enough.  The words were valuable to me but they weren't a priority to read and live out.

The verse that I am clinging to right now is found in 2 Corinthians 10:3-6:

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does.  The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world.  On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.  We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ..."

On my own I have no power.  I am a weak, young woman who is useless is breaking strongholds in my life or anyone else's.  But I'm not fighting alone.  I am fighting with the Creator of the universe who has already won this war.  I am no longer a slave to sin and I don't have to obey anxiety and worry like it is my master...it is not!  (Romans 6)

So what does it look like to wage war?  For me, right now, it means prayer, reading the word.  Being prepared to give an answer for my faith.  It means constant surrender of my worry and to refocus my thoughts and my actions on who God is and what that means for my circumstances.

I think the average stereotype of a pastor's wife is weak and I think it needs to be redefined.  Scripture tells us that we are to submit to our husbands (Eph. 5:22) and have the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit (1 Peter 3:4).  That is truth.  Period.

Scripture also tells us women and men alike are to put on the full armor of God (Eph 6) and to wage war (2 Cor. 10:3-6).   We are daughters of the King of kings.  And we are warriors.  And in this time and culture it is time to take up arms and step up to the challenge. Tired?  Worn out? Overwhelmed?  Take it to Jesus.  Rest.  Refresh.  Talk to a godly woman who can encourage you.  We are not alone in the fight.  Let's step up together.

Feel like sin is in your way?  Rebuke it.  You are not a slave to sin.  Will you be perfect?  No.  We now serve a God who is gracious and has covered your sins with His Son's blood.  Sin is part of the fight. Take it to Jesus.


We recently saw Tedashii in concert with our teens (along with several other artists) and this song helps me stay focused and encouraged to fight.

"I hear so many Christians murmuring about their imperfections, and their failure, and their addiction, and their shortcomings.  And I see so little war! Murmur, murmur, murmur.  Why am I this way?  MAKE WAR!"

Women's Bible Study

I gave you a little "teaser" at the end of my last blog about our Women's Bible Study but today I just came home from our study once again and I am overflowing with hope for the women in our church.  As I mentioned we are going through a sermon series on Ruth and are using some different studies combined to have video and discussion time.  Our video series comes from Mars Hill in Seattle, WA and is of Mark Driscoll preaching.  He has been an encouraging source of Biblical truth for Jonerik and I for a long time and I was excited to share this with our women.

Here is a link to the series that we are watching
Redeeming Ruth

The great thing that we are able to do in this setting is to break up into smaller groups of usually 3-5 people and discuss what we have watched and/or read.  We are also able to really talk about prayer requests and what God is doing in our lives.

We have two women from a supporting church come to help lead this group and Nikki and I also help facilitate the discussion groups and organize ideas.

My hope overflows from our good conversations and how I am able to see God changing my heart and moving in the hearts of the women around me.  There are very diverse backgrounds and life situations that sit around the table and out of that diversity comes unique perspectives on the tough issues of life and the amazing creativity in God's pursuit of each of us.

Please pray for this Bible study, that we would continue to learn truth and that we would continue to grow a sense of unity and love that can only come from Jesus Christ.  Being a woman of God in Kensington is not an easy task - we need Christ and we need each other.

Daily reminders of God's grace...

Jonerik and I just celebrated our one year anniversary - glory be to God!  We were blessed through saving, some sacrifice, and some addition gifts to go on a cruise to celebrate.  We went to the Caribbean and enjoyed a week of relaxation and beauty.

Coming back to Kensington was a convicting reminder of reality.  It was hard for me to come back, but not for the reasons you might expect.  You might expect that it would be hard because of the cold weather, trash all over the streets, and people everywhere.  But this adjustment was convicting for me personally because I saw just how much I prefer to ignore that there are destructive forces at work around us.  

As I laid in bed the night after returning I was quickly brought back to the reality of our neighborhood as people argued in the streets, spewing anger and hatred, hurt and despair.  Drugs readily being sold, people who are stumbling around drunk - trying to forget, children outside late into the night.  I would like to ignore that these are realities for so many people.  I would like to live in a place where my husband doesn't get approached by a prostitute on his way to church.  Where a police helicopter is not circling over our house just about every night.

But the reason I want to be far away from those things is not because I fear my safety, it is because it is painful to watch people living their lives with secrets from their past slowly destroying them, to see the enemy lying to people whose defenses are weak, and it is painful to hear the immaturity in people fighting because of pride, selfishness, and rage - from an empty way of life handed down to them.  In my selfishness I would like to put blinders on more frequently than not and ignore the fact that these things go on - all the time.

So I do live here, and while it is hard to be surrounded with darkness on such an obvious level, I love it.  How could I love it?  Because this is where God is calling us to live and He has some amazing people in our lives that we can partner with.  We can see God working in small ways through individuals and through the love of a church family.  God is here.  And so we love it.

My life is a constant reminder of the amazing grace that God offers to us.  My personal sin is a clear example of that for sure, but we also have the reminder of the depravity of man on our doorstep regularly (and literally) and that brings me to my [proverbial] knees as I consistently recognize man's need for a Savior...a Redeemer.  

I am then humbled when I see God moving in people around me.  I am involved in a women's Bible Study at our church on Wed. mornings.  We are currently going through the Redeeming Ruth series by Mark Driscoll and it is going great!  We have a consistent group of about 10 women coming and it has been so encouraging (and challenging) to see God changing and growing hearts...slowly...but clearly.  I was moved to tears this week as I told Jonerik about our study and how I saw God using one of our women to reach out to other neighborhood women - putting her faith to action and getting excited about it!  If you a woman at Cornerstone and you are reading this...come out to our study!  Seek God and you won't be disappointed.  If not...please pray that God will continue to use this study to build up women of God in our church and in our neighborhood.

There are some more updates on our current life coming.  We are coming into a busy time with the holidays straight ahead.  Today we did a Thanksgiving Basket give away at our church and we provided food baskets for over 50 people who are mostly regular attenders of CCC.  We will do another give away on Thursday for others in the community (at our regular monthly food cupboard).  We are also working on getting a newsletter out soon so keep coming back to the blog and let me know if you would like to receive a newsletter and you aren't already on our list!  emily.santiago109@gmail.com